Some days, I get so frustrated . Not necessarily because of my circumstances, but because of my lack of ability to deal with them the way that I know they should be dealt with.
Jesus spoke to the storm and said, "Peace, be still".
We have the authority to tell mountains of discouragement, stress, and oppression to get up and move.
Fear and anxiety have to leave when we choose to put our hope in the Lord.
Rest and rejuvination come not always from Him giving us energy, but in an exchange of energy between us and God. In communion with Him.
I want that communion so badly. That connection that is so deep, where I can just pour everything out onto Him and hear Him speak to me, so clearly, so sweetly.
And yet, on days like these, all I find myself really being able to do is just cry.
I'm learning that there is good in being very real and raw with your emotions. Be honest about your needs and vulnerability. It's okay to work through your feelings. That's what King David did - he worked through the honesty of his situation and emotions, but he concluded each psalm with the knowledge and trust that God would take care of it.
I think what's throwing me off in being real about my emotional and spiritual shortcomings, it that it feels so much more un-glamorous when you're actually in the middle of it.
I guess I just thought, "I went through GL. They taught us and gave us the tools to use in anything that comes across our path. No problem should be a problem for anymore!"
Not so easily done. Turns out GL grads aren't perfect know-it-alls, after all.
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